1208 months and 9 days old

My father is born in 1944,
and grandpa has lived 407 months,
and 10 days
When dad is 806 months
and 1 day…

I am born in 1980,
and grandpa has lived 844 months
and 5 days
When I am 395 months
and 6 days…


My son is born in 2010,
and grandpa is 1095 months
and 10 days
When Caleb is 14 months
and 1 day…

Japan in the Times

I look, but I cannot look, because I cannot see, because I cannot deal,

I cannot take--
The New York Times is too graphic, too blatant.

I see, but I cannot see death of that magnitude, devastation, destruction,

bodies…
and so I pretend-even to myself; my sheltered,

(naïve,) self,
that the people, (who two days ago were—breathing--moving-- living;)

are today,

(as they are being pulled from the rubble to find only darkness;)

in fact sleeping,

(by choice,) not destroyed--dead--unmoving--nonliving--desiccating

bodies--corpses,

among devastating--debilitating--chaos.
-- my mind hides and weeps as helpless as a child --